[ Jason started to let out an amused noise until Tim made that comment. He stiffens despite his arm still around Tim. He has half a mind to shove Tim away but he had made a fucking promise and at times he wanted to fight the image that he wasn't to be trusted. He took a breath before shifting his arm to slip it from Tim's shoulder to his neck. A headlock no less.]
Listen here, Timbers, and listen well. [ His voice had that dangerous edge to it.] That shit only happened once and your talking to the bastard that did it. Don't bring that shit up again. Don't bring him up unless you want to walk your ass all the way home drunk. Understood?
[Tim flinches, expecting a more violent response than being grabbed in a headlock. If he were thinking straight - if he weren't drunk and panicking, he might be able to evade, fight back. He's trained for this sort of thing, getting out of headlocks, taking on bigger and stronger opponents than himself, but the fear that he's just done irreparable harm with letting his stupid mouth run has him paralyzed, incapable of doing anything but submitting to Jason and gasping for breath between the rush of words tumbling out of his mouth.]
I know, Jason - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't - I didn't mean anything, I -
[I fucked up, things were sort of OK and now they're not, I ruined it, and he can taste the bile rising up in the back of his throat. This was a mistake. All of this was a mistake.]
[ It doesn't take more than a second into Tim speaking for Jay to realize that Tim's not only far more trashed than he realized, but also taking him way to serious. Granted, with the beatings he'd given in the past he couldn't fault his replacement.
He moves his arms to Tim's shoulders and twists him both away from himself and the car. ]
[Tim doesn't need much encouragement; almost immediately after Jason releases his hold on Tim, he's doubled over, heaving up the contents of his stomach onto the pavement - which is mostly the beer, because guess who forgot to eat before this outing! TIM DRAKE IS NOT GOOD AT DRINKING OK. Once the worst of it is over, hands still gripping his knees, he inhales shaky breath after shaky breath and tries to shove down the new, sick feeling of embarrassment washing over him. He drags the back of his hand over his mouth and shakes his head.]
[ Jason slipped his phone out, a quick few pictures snapped. A chance to keep black mail on the younger bird couldn't be passed up, but once the pictures were taken he slipped the phone away and waited for Tim to finish. ]
Stop apologizing, Timbers, Jeeze, you missed me, you missed the car. You didn't offend me either, I was kidding. Now, stand up, cause once this cab comes were getting you some take out and going to a hotel so you can eat and sleep this off.
[Tim squints at Jason. He was pretty sure he fucked up bad with his stupid mouth, but ... Jason's not mad? Weird, but OK. He'll take it. He's too drunk to do anything but feel relieved.]
A hotel? Shouldn't you just drop me off at my place?
[He coughs, tries to spit the taste of beer-flavored vomit out of his mouth.]
[ Jason shook his head amused at Tim's wording as he unlocked the car and pulled something out, tossing a small tin Tim's way. Breath mints. The door was locked and shut back as he looked up to see a car approching hoping it was their cab. ]
Fuck that, like I want to go anywhere where any of the other's can walk in and ask me whats wrong with you. Besides, hotels have nice beds and all doors open for Mr. Wayne-Drake.
[Tim fumbles the catch on the tin of mints but recovers before they hit the ground. Grateful, he pries the tin open, pops three mints in his mouth, and walks the tin back over to Jason, wobbly on his feet but definitely feeling better.]
No one's dropping in on me tonight, Jason. I told you.
[But his apartment is small, a temporary space, because he doesn't know how long - or if - he's going to stay in Gotham. A hotel doesn't sound like such a bad idea. Tim digs into his pocket for his phone and pulls up another app - yes, he's got an app for that, too - to search for available nearby hotels. There's a good one with a vacancy not too far away; he books it as the cab pulls up to a halt in front of the bar.]
I think this is us. We can skip the takeout, there's room service.
[Honestly, Tim would just be happy to lie down until everything stops spinning.]
[Tim's already having some regrets about tonight, but they're about his alcohol intake and the gaffe with bringing up Bruce to Jason, not about spending time with Jason. After giving the driver directions, he's quiet during the cab ride, slumped in the seat with a two fingers pressed over his mouth, eyes on the cityscape out the window as it passes, busy running everything that's happened tonight through his mind as well as can be expected after four beers and very little tolerance for booze. When they reach the hotel, he beelines for the reception desk, turns on the Timothy Drake-Wayne smile, slides his credit card to the concierge, and tries not to think how this must look: two guys checking in together this late at night with no luggage, obviously (in his case, at least, Tim's pretty sure he sucks at hiding it) drunk.
... Would it be the worst thing, Tim wonders, fleetingly, keycard in hand and heading up the elevator with Jason at his side, if people thought he and Jason were together? His stomach does a flip, either from the beer or the elevator or the thought of such a scenario - possibly all of the above. His first answer to himself is I'm tired, and the second is I'm way too drunk for this, and the third and final answer is a resounding No.
He opens the door to the room with a swish and click of the keycard and heads straight for the bed, planting face down on the mattress with a quiet groan. It seems to have escaped his notice, for the moment, that there's only one bed in the room.]
[ For his part Jason stayed quiet poking at his phone after popping a couple of the mints into his own month. Never hurt to be minty fresh. The ride had been uneventful but he trusted Tim not to upchuck in the cab. He hovered not to far from Tim as he checked in, head down looking through the phone. Nothing unusual about him, even his nice clothes wouldn't give to much of a description to go off of. Still, he had no shame about it, he knew nothing shameful would happen. Tim was drunk and this was far from Jason's first rodeo with judging women watching him walk into hotels.
It wasn't the worst thing. Much worse things could happen, and unlike Tim, Jason had none of these concerns. He wasn't even really bothered by the bringing up of Bruce. Hell, much worse could have been said he knew it was the liquor talking. Stepping in, he tugged off his leather jacket he had collected from the car and tossed it over a chair, stretching his arms over his head as he walked through giving the place a one over.]
Looks like were sharing the bed, Timbers. [ He replied easily as he turned and flopped across the mattress, hotel beds were always perfect.] I believe you promised me room service, Mr. Wayne-Drake.
[Tim groans into the mattress again - why did he overlook such a simple detail? because he's drunk, that's why - and turns his head in Jason's direction. Without looking, he points in the general direction of the phone.]
You can order whatever you want, it'll be billed to my card. I'm not hungry.
[Ignoring the bed problem for the moment. It's big enough to share - it'll probably be fine.]
You okay Timbo? And your scrawny ass is eating or you'll feel like you were beat with a crowbar in the morning. Trust me, I know.
[ He asked as he shifed and pushed himself up moveing over to the phone to call in a few things that would be greasy and a few frivilois things. Hanging up and tagging his boots off to sit back in the chair and keep a close eye on the little bird.]
[Hm. That seems like it might be the kind of joke that only Jason is allowed to make. Tim's judgment is off tonight, and he knows it, so he decides not to finish that sentence. Instead, he rolls onto his side to face Jason, head propped up in his hand.]
I'm fine. Just - feel a little queasy still. Wouldn't want to puke on the bed in the middle of the night.
[ A pointed, but amused look was waiting when Tim looked his way. That was really just another sign that Tim was gone, but not completely gone. Jason lifted both arms in a full shrug.]
Your not fine, your drunk and I doubt you've even been this tanked before. It's got it's ups and downs and your going to go through the downs real fast if you don't eat. For once shut off that big brain and listen to the drinker of the family.
[ Though he's sure Bruce has the title in just his fake persona, or Dick when he hides his sorrows, but Jason's drinking was just a way of coping and gathering intel. There was a lot to be learned in cheap dive bars.
He pushed himself off the chair and moved over sitting by Tim's feet to start to take off the younger's shoes.]
That's why were in a hotel Timbers, you throw up here and it's not our problem as long as you don't puke on me. Your going to sleep on your stomach tonight, and if you roll, I'll roll you back. I'm an old hand at this, so for once just trust me. Despite whatever the other's tell you, just trust me tonight.
[It's true, Tim's never been this drunk before. On this particular subject, Jason is the undeniable expert, which isn't surprising, but the care he's showing Tim right now is - pleasantly so. Tim sits up a little, hums quietly in thought, considering the implications of what Jason's asking of him. A small flutter rises up in his chest as he watches Jason unlace his shoes and pull them off his feet.]
So ... you take me out drinking, then to a hotel, and now you're undressing me? [A crooked half-smile cracks across his mouth.] Are you sure this isn't a date?
[ Jason gives him a flat look at that for a second, his hackles rising feeling a little like it's a stab before after a second the smile hit's him and he arches a brow leaning in. ]
Oh, Timbers, you couldn't handle me if it was really a date. [ He spoke making sure to draw his words out a little before dropping the shoes. A smug look was given Tim's way, the kind of look he usually reserved for a date, but he was mostly teasing at this point.]
[Tim sits up a little more, hands braced against the bed to prop him up, head tipped to the side, inquisitive.]
You think so? Would you bet actual money on that?
[His tone's light, joking, but it's not entirely a joke. Not with Jason looking at him like that. Not with his heartbeat galloping in his chest, so loud Tim's certain Jason must be able to hear it.]
[ There was something terrible but amusing in saying Tim's name like that. He couldn't hear the heart but he had a feeling Tim was just wasted.
Jason isn't about to admit how broke he was of late thanks to being stupid and letting one Mr. Harper talk him into a joint bank account. He could weasel his way out of anything owed anyway.]
Sure, Timbers, why the fuck not. [ Hearing the door he stood up moving away to go get the food.]
[The thing about Tim is that he can move fast - as fast as the bird after which he named his alter ego, perhaps. One second he's still sitting on the bed; the next, he's on his feet, sliding in between Jason and the door; the next, he's reaching up to pull Jason down by his collar, bringing their mouths together in a kiss, rushed and imprecise.
This is a bad idea, he thinks, but when has that thought ever stopped Tim Drake from reaching for his objective?
Tim doesn't linger on the kiss. As soon as it ends, he's opening the door, pushing a tip twice as much as standard into the hand of the hotel employee, handing some of the trays to Jason and taking the rest in his own hands.
He doesn't know what's going to happen when the door closes again. The only thing Tim knows is that when it does, everything between him and Jason is going to be different.]
[ Jason was dumbfounded, left standing wide eyed a few moment even as Tim tipped and gathered the food. His eyes moving to follow the smaller, his replacement, the smart one. It took a few moments for the wheels to get turning again.
Despite all of his swaggering boastfulness, he was about ninety percent bravado in any given situation. He knew he was a good looking guy, he knew people were attracted to him but when moments presented he either over sold, went with it or blanked out. So after a second he finally finds himself moving after Tim.]
You do realize your drunk, and Bruce will not approve of his precious bird being tainted, right?
[ He had to say it. Not put off or disgusted, the opposite in fact.]
[Tim sets the trays he's carrying down on the table, slides a shaking hand over his mouth and inhales a slow, steadying breath. I really did it. I kissed him. And Jason isn't angry about it - that's the most unbelievable part, that he isn't putting his fist directly into Tim's face. He sounds - cautious. Concerned about Tim's judgment, maybe. Tim grips both hands around the ledge of the table and looks to Jason over his shoulder.]
Bruce isn't here, Jason. And I'm not -
[Not his "precious bird" - not anymore, if I ever was. Tim's no Dick Grayson, and Bruce has Damian now, too, his true son by blood. No need for the stray he'd taken in anymore. Tim shakes his head, shakes the thoughts away. He doesn't want to think about Bruce right now. He turns entirely around to Jason, leans back into the table.]
You really think I'm too drunk to know exactly what I want? What I've wanted for years? I'm not.
[ Jason stays still a long moment before moving to meet Tim by the food. Reaching up and rubbing his own temples. Trying to connect the dots. The alcohol in him didn't do much for him besides make him think to much. ]
Thank god for that.
[ He grumbled before feeling like he's missed something but before he can say anything on it Tim's speaking again and Jason knows he has to make a choice. He points to the chair.]
I don't care how drunk you are Timbo. I'm not.... Not tonight. Sit eat and lets go to bed. We can talk about this tomorrow morning when I know your not only not half asleep but not half drunk we can talk about this. It's not rejection before you take it that way.
[ He added reaching over Tim to grab a thing of ice cream.]
[Jason may say it's not a rejection, but it sure feels like it all the same. Tim doesn't budge except to reach for Jason's wrist en route to the ice cream.]
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Listen here, Timbers, and listen well. [ His voice had that dangerous edge to it.] That shit only happened once and your talking to the bastard that did it. Don't bring that shit up again. Don't bring him up unless you want to walk your ass all the way home drunk. Understood?
[ He couldn't just let it go.]
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I know, Jason - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't - I didn't mean anything, I -
[I fucked up, things were sort of OK and now they're not, I ruined it, and he can taste the bile rising up in the back of his throat. This was a mistake. All of this was a mistake.]
I - I think - I'm gonna be sick.
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He moves his arms to Tim's shoulders and twists him both away from himself and the car. ]
Go on, kid, puke it all up. You'll feel better.
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Sorry ... sorry, I'm sorry ...
[That seems to be all he can say at the moment.]
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Stop apologizing, Timbers, Jeeze, you missed me, you missed the car. You didn't offend me either, I was kidding. Now, stand up, cause once this cab comes were getting you some take out and going to a hotel so you can eat and sleep this off.
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A hotel? Shouldn't you just drop me off at my place?
[He coughs, tries to spit the taste of beer-flavored vomit out of his mouth.]
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Fuck that, like I want to go anywhere where any of the other's can walk in and ask me whats wrong with you. Besides, hotels have nice beds and all doors open for Mr. Wayne-Drake.
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No one's dropping in on me tonight, Jason. I told you.
[But his apartment is small, a temporary space, because he doesn't know how long - or if - he's going to stay in Gotham. A hotel doesn't sound like such a bad idea. Tim digs into his pocket for his phone and pulls up another app - yes, he's got an app for that, too - to search for available nearby hotels. There's a good one with a vacancy not too far away; he books it as the cab pulls up to a halt in front of the bar.]
I think this is us. We can skip the takeout, there's room service.
[Honestly, Tim would just be happy to lie down until everything stops spinning.]
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You never know with them.
[ He shrugged some, before he stepped close watching Tim work the app, and opened the door once Tim said he thought it was for them.]
You had me at room service. Your going to regret this come morning. Let's go. After you, Timbers.
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... Would it be the worst thing, Tim wonders, fleetingly, keycard in hand and heading up the elevator with Jason at his side, if people thought he and Jason were together? His stomach does a flip, either from the beer or the elevator or the thought of such a scenario - possibly all of the above. His first answer to himself is I'm tired, and the second is I'm way too drunk for this, and the third and final answer is a resounding No.
He opens the door to the room with a swish and click of the keycard and heads straight for the bed, planting face down on the mattress with a quiet groan. It seems to have escaped his notice, for the moment, that there's only one bed in the room.]
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It wasn't the worst thing. Much worse things could happen, and unlike Tim, Jason had none of these concerns. He wasn't even really bothered by the bringing up of Bruce. Hell, much worse could have been said he knew it was the liquor talking. Stepping in, he tugged off his leather jacket he had collected from the car and tossed it over a chair, stretching his arms over his head as he walked through giving the place a one over.]
Looks like were sharing the bed, Timbers. [ He replied easily as he turned and flopped across the mattress, hotel beds were always perfect.] I believe you promised me room service, Mr. Wayne-Drake.
[ He teased.]
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You can order whatever you want, it'll be billed to my card. I'm not hungry.
[Ignoring the bed problem for the moment. It's big enough to share - it'll probably be fine.]
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[ He asked as he shifed and pushed himself up moveing over to the phone to call in a few things that would be greasy and a few frivilois things. Hanging up and tagging his boots off to sit back in the chair and keep a close eye on the little bird.]
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[Hm. That seems like it might be the kind of joke that only Jason is allowed to make. Tim's judgment is off tonight, and he knows it, so he decides not to finish that sentence. Instead, he rolls onto his side to face Jason, head propped up in his hand.]
I'm fine. Just - feel a little queasy still. Wouldn't want to puke on the bed in the middle of the night.
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Your not fine, your drunk and I doubt you've even been this tanked before. It's got it's ups and downs and your going to go through the downs real fast if you don't eat. For once shut off that big brain and listen to the drinker of the family.
[ Though he's sure Bruce has the title in just his fake persona, or Dick when he hides his sorrows, but Jason's drinking was just a way of coping and gathering intel. There was a lot to be learned in cheap dive bars.
He pushed himself off the chair and moved over sitting by Tim's feet to start to take off the younger's shoes.]
That's why were in a hotel Timbers, you throw up here and it's not our problem as long as you don't puke on me. Your going to sleep on your stomach tonight, and if you roll, I'll roll you back. I'm an old hand at this, so for once just trust me. Despite whatever the other's tell you, just trust me tonight.
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So ... you take me out drinking, then to a hotel, and now you're undressing me? [A crooked half-smile cracks across his mouth.] Are you sure this isn't a date?
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Oh, Timbers, you couldn't handle me if it was really a date. [ He spoke making sure to draw his words out a little before dropping the shoes. A smug look was given Tim's way, the kind of look he usually reserved for a date, but he was mostly teasing at this point.]
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You think so? Would you bet actual money on that?
[His tone's light, joking, but it's not entirely a joke. Not with Jason looking at him like that. Not with his heartbeat galloping in his chest, so loud Tim's certain Jason must be able to hear it.]
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[ There was something terrible but amusing in saying Tim's name like that. He couldn't hear the heart but he had a feeling Tim was just wasted.
Jason isn't about to admit how broke he was of late thanks to being stupid and letting one Mr. Harper talk him into a joint bank account. He could weasel his way out of anything owed anyway.]
Sure, Timbers, why the fuck not. [ Hearing the door he stood up moving away to go get the food.]
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This is a bad idea, he thinks, but when has that thought ever stopped Tim Drake from reaching for his objective?
Tim doesn't linger on the kiss. As soon as it ends, he's opening the door, pushing a tip twice as much as standard into the hand of the hotel employee, handing some of the trays to Jason and taking the rest in his own hands.
He doesn't know what's going to happen when the door closes again. The only thing Tim knows is that when it does, everything between him and Jason is going to be different.]
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Despite all of his swaggering boastfulness, he was about ninety percent bravado in any given situation. He knew he was a good looking guy, he knew people were attracted to him but when moments presented he either over sold, went with it or blanked out. So after a second he finally finds himself moving after Tim.]
You do realize your drunk, and Bruce will not approve of his precious bird being tainted, right?
[ He had to say it. Not put off or disgusted, the opposite in fact.]
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Bruce isn't here, Jason. And I'm not -
[Not his "precious bird" - not anymore, if I ever was. Tim's no Dick Grayson, and Bruce has Damian now, too, his true son by blood. No need for the stray he'd taken in anymore. Tim shakes his head, shakes the thoughts away. He doesn't want to think about Bruce right now. He turns entirely around to Jason, leans back into the table.]
You really think I'm too drunk to know exactly what I want? What I've wanted for years? I'm not.
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Thank god for that.
[ He grumbled before feeling like he's missed something but before he can say anything on it Tim's speaking again and Jason knows he has to make a choice. He points to the chair.]
I don't care how drunk you are Timbo. I'm not.... Not tonight. Sit eat and lets go to bed. We can talk about this tomorrow morning when I know your not only not half asleep but not half drunk we can talk about this. It's not rejection before you take it that way.
[ He added reaching over Tim to grab a thing of ice cream.]
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[Jason may say it's not a rejection, but it sure feels like it all the same. Tim doesn't budge except to reach for Jason's wrist en route to the ice cream.]
You won't even talk to me about this?
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[ He spoke firmly, but when Tim grabbed his wrist he had half a mind to yank it away. ]
You really want to do this here and now? Tim you deserve better than this, than me even. Shit kid, have you looked in a mirror lately?
[ It wasn't so much that Tim deserved more, as Jason worries how badly it would go.]
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switching to pb account for this <3
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